I used to be very shy sexually. I grew up in a home where sex was never talked about and the group of girls I went around with was extremely religious; all of us were virgins when we got married. I had never even touched myself except to wash. Pleasuring myself seemed gross and my husband did everything he could to get me to open up sexually.
We had good sex, but after 4 years I still hadn’t had an orgasm- and I didn’t really want too, at least that is what I thought. He divorced me, not because he was cheating and definitely not because I was, he just said he was sick of feeling like he sucked at sex and that he wanted me to find someone that could please me. I knew he meant that he wanted someone more fun. I wished he had cheated then I could hate him and blame him, but since this was completely my fault I could only be mad at myself. After a short period of self hate, I decided that I was going to prove him wrong and make him hate his decision to leave me.
My plan was simple – get a super hot guy, or guys, and send the video of us fucking to him. I thought it was the perfect plan, except the sex part. I decided that I had to learn too cum, not an easy task for my 26-year-old self. I don’t drink much, but the best sex I ever had was when I was really drunk.
I started by getting a pack of flavored vodka, my rabbit vibrator (which my ex had bought me hoping I would use it, which I never had), and a handful of porn I rented from this adult video vending machine (I could never had been able to walk into a video store to get it). I had only seen about ten second of porn before and at the time it grossed me out, but as I sorted through the list of movies, I begun to get a tingle between my legs. The thought of my ex seeing me watching the porn really made me horny.
As I left the machine, I noticed a creepy guy staring at me… and it really turned me on. Knowing that my body could make a man stare was exhilarating. I never thought about myself as sexy. I am on the skinny side, but far from perfect. I have average sized breast, but I have always thought my ass was the best part of me. I tried to wiggle it a little as I passed the guy so he would turn and watch me. I turned to see if my bait had worked and he grabbed himself. I couldn’t believe that he did that right out in the open and that it really made me hot. The tingle turned into heat and I could feel my lips sliding together with the increasing lubrication as I walked to the car. I couldn’t remember the last time I felt this way.
I started drinking as soon as I got home. I turned the lights down, got out my favorite candles and picked the first DVD, “MILFS Teach Young Studs.” The cheesy title made me laugh as I had already started feeling buzzed. After about 30 minutes of watching old ladies getting pounded, I was tipsy and horny. It was awkward at first to see so many different naked bodies, but as I relaxed it really started to make me hot. I decided to get changed into something that would make me feel sexy.
I went to the bottom drawer and got out my favorite panties and the bra that made my girls squeeze together. I put the next DVD in. It was girls playing with themselves and I wanted to learn from the best. As I watched the first girl slowly strip and begin to touch her tiny breast, I did the same. I took the bra off and played with my tits. I sucked on my finger and then gently rubbed the tips of my hard nipples.
I pulled my breast up so that I could lick them; it was bit uncomfortable, but I managed to get the nipples in my mouth. Wow! I loved getting them sucked and longed to be able to just lay back and enjoy it. I grabbed the vodka and poured a little on my firm breasts. The cold liquid made me shiver and my nipples grew even bigger. I licked as much as I could off my tits and rubbed the rest down my stomach.
To be continued…